Staying Positive

My oh My. Where to even start with this?

Okay.

Positivity: the frequent experience of pleasant emotions.  Some of the most common are: joy, hope, gratitude, interest, serenity, pride, amusement, love, inspiration, and awe.

From that definition, being positive is a constant thing. Or a thing that is determined by consistency. Whichever makes sense. So it requires constant work. You have to consciously, actively and regularly PRACTICE positivity. This means calling yourself out when you see yourself drifting and heading the opposite direction. I do it all the time. I like that I can now spot it. It sometimes feels like a movie, where I am watching myself go off and wish at that same moment that I could physically pull myself away from myself. LOL! It is a real relationship, this that I have with myself and my thoughts.

This post has been a draft for the longest time. Everytime I sit to carry on where I left of the last time, I either get distracted or start editing what I typed previously. So I’m going to make sure I leave the old words as they are. And add more things, as and when they come to me.

I have cut out; news, tabloid, gossip etc.. I am subscribed to blogs, magazines, websites and forums that are in line with my vision of being a balanced and serene soul. Look, I am really loud and colourful, so maybe serene won’t happen. Much. But everything that I have implemented has helped me calm the fuck down when I have to. I can safely say what I’m doing, is working for ME and MINE. And I need to work on this Reality (TRASHY TV) that I binge on.

I think i’ll leave this here. I can always post another, maybe as a continuation or sequel? I know this is not everything I have learnt, or everything I will ever know. So yes, I shall chop and change. It is my blog, my rules. *allow these moments… power struggles are real*

In closing… I remember being so bitter that I watched a movie and always quoted a woman saying “bitterness is better left in someone else’s cup”
I now know better. Bitterness is not better in any shape, cup, size, or form. It must just be eliminated.

Toast to #growth

Love and Laughter
XO

 

 

Mine.

“you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love…” – Warsan Shire

This has been ringing in my head for a while now.

I want something to call my own.
I want something that is all mine.
I want something that I never have to worry about losing.
I want something that can never be taken from me.
I want something permanent.

I’ve never had anything that is any of those things.
And this might be why I want it all so bad.
No one wants to lose. No one wants things that can be taken away no matter how much one fights to keep them.
Fighting – another thing, I feel it’s all fair and well to fight for what you want.
I’m just not for losing oneself in the process. I will fight for what wants me, just to make that clear.

I’m at a point in my life where I believe that anything meant for me will always find its way to me. The soldier in me still wants to fight and hold on, but the warrior always snaps me back to reality and reminds me to surrender and LET GO OF THAT WHICH DOES NOT SERVE ME; Worry, stress and panic and all that negative shit.

But still…

I want something that is all mine.